Sivan - Gemini

Today is 1 Sivan 5766. Chodesh Tov.
45 days of the Omer Bless the Lord. I can definitely feel the desire to have it completed.
Sivan, Gemini, is the 3rd month in the Hebrew calendar, the month of the giving and receiving of Torah.
The letter for the month of Sivan is Zayin, the letter of Shabbat, the 7th letter of the aleph bet, gematria 7.
As we have been taught by the sages, the number seven is always dear - sacred.
Torah always begins Sivan with the first portion in the Book of Numbers, Bamidbar. Bamidbar means in the desert. They call it Numbers, because the portion Bamidbar is the re counting of the census but this time in the desert .
The Holy Day in the month of Sivan is Shavuot, the 50th day of the Omer. Shavuot is the holiday of the giving of the Torah.
The sense is walking, or forward progress and the organ is left foot.
The mazal, or sign, is Gemini, the twins. Two contained within one. The third month.
During Sivan, we're Back in the Desert - Bamidbar - BeHar Sinai, Bamidbar Sinai.

Zayin, as the letter which according to Sefer Yetzirah created the month of Sivan and the sign of Gemini, is the sacred energy of the Shabbbat. Whilst Vav, the letter for the month of Iyar is the direct light, descending from above to below, zayin is a vav with a crown on top and is returning light. This is a difficult yet basic concept of kabbalah - the differences in the manifestations of the light.
Or yashar = direct light, or straight light
Or chozer = returning light.
Or pimini is original light.
So, we are moving from or yashar, direct light, to or chozer, returning light, which is really what the Omer is all about. Here's Rabbi G :
'"Or chozer ascends with such great force that it reaches a higher state of consciousness that that of the revealed origin-point of the or yashar. When reaching the initially superconscious realm of Keter ( the crown), it broadens its awareness to both the right and left. In truth there is no left in the Ancient One(the level of Keter, for all is right. "

Zayin is associated with the feminine, as Shabbat is the mating, and the mazal of Gemini, the twins, is the symbolism of the uniting of two into one.
From "Songs of Creation-meditations on the sacred hebrew alphabet" by jennifer judelsohn.

"Zayin represents movement and separation. Shaped like a sword, zayin functions as a tool for spiritual discernment and distinction, cutting away what is unholy within us and enabling us to rise to higher levels of spiritual awareness and wisdom.
Zayin, the seventh letter of the aleph-bet also represents the Sabbath - the separation of the sacred from the ordinary. Meditation: Take time daily to separate from the ordinary and connect with the sacred. Take steps to nurture your soul."

Sivan is the month to radiate our inner understanding outwards. Torah is the inner knowledge.

It is a month during which the intimacy of coupling is manifest. The feminine principle is once again prominent. In order for the higher realms to become manifest in the physical, it is necessary for the feminine to achieve her receptivity. It is all about Binah. The 50 day count of the Omer coincides with the 50 gates of Binah. It is also the sacred gematria of adding the kolel +1 to the gematria : (7 x 7 )+ 1 = 50. The kolel takes into consideration the oneness of the Divine principal. We receive the light and give it back. It can never go just one way. It is through the letter zayin that the connection is made. Sivan can be a month of emotional upheaval - the desire to go in two directions at once. It is also the opposites which are in us all, masculine and feminine, intertwing in the mazal of the twins. The main element in the energy is that of complete fulfillment, as on the Shabbat. It is a different dimension. In walking, the left foot follows the right foot. Walking cannot be achieved without the motion of both.

"GEMINI: Hebrew month of Sivan

The planet Mercury rules their chart. Mercury makes them quick in their actions and gives them an inquisitive and curious mind. With their conversational abilities and quick wit, they are natural communicators. The Gemini rising makes them mentally gifted; they have good memory and learn quickly and easily. However, they sometimes become restless, irritable and indecisive. This is because of the dual nature of their rising sign. They like constant stimulation and diversity. They may find themselves doing two things at the same time. When things go slower than they expect or if things are not as interesting, they become bored and impatient. They will achieve spiritual growth when they start taking responsibility of their actions and stay in one path until the end of it. Most of the time they leave a task or a process right in the middle of it, before reaping the benefits of their hard work in bringing it to that point. Focusing on it till the end will bring them to higher spiritual levels. " From http://www.nehora.com/hebdate.cfm

hmmm.

This is an excellent link:
http://www.ritualwell.org/holidays/roshchodeshnewmoon/sivan/

Mercury, the messenger, is the ruling planet of Sivan. The letter for Mercury is the Reish, the 20th letter of the aleph bet, gematria 200.

Right now Mercury isn't visible in the sky, as far as I know. I'm still seeing Jupiter.
I'll have to surf it.

I had quite a bit of trouble doing this post - my brain is distracted. See? I kept confusing Sivan which is Gemini with Cancer, Tammuz. Oy. That Mercury plays games with communication. I'll be doing a little more research on the letter Zayin. Everything is always so obfuscated. I know that the zayin is the key. I believe in the energy of these letters. Yet, in my own personal life, I continue to live in emotional extremism, feeling everyhing, and having the sword cut rather than heal. I think it is cool that the pictograph of the zayin represents the sword. I wonder if it is the same sword froggie took when he went a courtin', or if it is excalibar. Ha. Whilst I feel that my connection with the universal energy consciousness is strong, I still feel myself falling and empty. No matter what I do, complete connection in the physical plane has not manifested for me during this current lifetime. I might also mention that my death and rebirth was in the sign of Gemini. On June 16, 1997 I had my heart attack, and was dead for 10 minutes. They did CPR on me, and then the paddles. Ever since that experience I've had trouble defining my purpose on Earth. I'm telling truths here that I usually hesitate to tell, but why not. Nobody reads anymore anyway. Blogging ain't what it started out to be. Most things go that route.

"one thing after another, everything disppears" . euripides.

We used to have an intellectual joke. euripides umenides. Ha.

Rejoice in the longer days. Connect with the zayin to nuture your soul. Remember that it is the feminine within us that manifest spirituality into the consciousness of the physical world. There is really no duality or separation. That is a false illusion. There are just different sides to the same cause. As Rabbi Shimon says, this has already been explained.

Chodesh Tov Sivan